I Want; However… or Contradictions

I want to be told what do to, but then I don’t want to do it.

I want to be in charge, but then I don’t really take charge.

I wouldn’t mind having power, without any responsibility.

I want responsibility, unless it means I have to take the blame.

I want friends, but refuse to “meet” people.

I want a wife and kids, but refuse to “date”.

I want a better, higher paying job, but don’t want to pick up more hours at my current job.

I want God to answer my prayers, but I don’t believe He will.

I want to make fun YouTube videos, but I don’t ever record anything.

I want to tell my story, but never tell the whole thing.

I want to do what’s right, but doubt that will get me anywhere.

I want to tell the truth, but don’t out of fear of backlash.

I want to speak about God and Jesus, but don’t out of fear.

I want a better job, but I won’t apply for any.

I want to sing, but I don’t want to be heard.

I want people to see me, but I don’t want them to look at me.

I want to argue, but I don’t want to be challenged.

I want to love, but I don’t want to lose.

I want to gain the world, but I don’t want to lose my soul.

I want to live..

No “but” there. However, it is so hard.

Thank Jesus it doesn’t have to be forever!

Job Search (Because YouTube Probably Won’t Work Out)

Remember being in high school? Remember how you would do things without really understanding why you were doing them? Maybe to be cool… or to impress someone… or to be like everyone else, or to be liked by everyone else… or maybe you saw someone on TV, some kid, and you thought “that’s what kids are supposed to be like“ so you better try real hard to be like that kid or else people are going to think you’re weird…

When do you grow out of that?

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Waffles or Pancakes

You are on the Internet, browsing Reddit or scrolling through Facebook. Or maybe you’re a hip young millennial swiping through TikTocs and bingeing Netflix shows.

But then, you see something that you cannot stand. You cannot pass by this atrocity against humanity. You need to speak! You need to bring attention to this horrendous plague, this vile attack, this, this… social injustice!

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Just Go

I play this game called “Flow”. It’s a mobile game that’s been around almost as long as smart phones. Basically, you connect the different colored dots. Sometimes it’s pretty straight forward. Sometimes there’s lots of lines wrapping around each other. Quite often, because I’m drawing these lines so quickly, the line just doesn’t go where I want it to go.

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