I Want; However… or Contradictions

I want to be told what do to, but then I don’t want to do it.

I want to be in charge, but then I don’t really take charge.

I wouldn’t mind having power, without any responsibility.

I want responsibility, unless it means I have to take the blame.

I want friends, but refuse to “meet” people.

I want a wife and kids, but refuse to “date”.

I want a better, higher paying job, but don’t want to pick up more hours at my current job.

I want God to answer my prayers, but I don’t believe He will.

I want to make fun YouTube videos, but I don’t ever record anything.

I want to tell my story, but never tell the whole thing.

I want to do what’s right, but doubt that will get me anywhere.

I want to tell the truth, but don’t out of fear of backlash.

I want to speak about God and Jesus, but don’t out of fear.

I want a better job, but I won’t apply for any.

I want to sing, but I don’t want to be heard.

I want people to see me, but I don’t want them to look at me.

I want to argue, but I don’t want to be challenged.

I want to love, but I don’t want to lose.

I want to gain the world, but I don’t want to lose my soul.

I want to live..

No “but” there. However, it is so hard.

Thank Jesus it doesn’t have to be forever!